dogs confused by confused cats against feminism
Confused Cats Against Feminism is a project of We Hunted the Mammoth:The New Misogyny, tracked and mocked.
If you present hateful poems aimed at the poets around you, people will experience pain and your community will incur damage.
A BRUTAL READING
I felt my heart would beat out of my chest. I could not believe what I was hearing. I was on stage as part of a group poetry reading…
I went home last weekend to the mountains of WNC and found ramps in season at the local farmer’s market. Let’s just say I came home with enough ramps to experiment with. The following is a recipe for Jalepeño and ramp jelly and it. is. AWESOME!
This recipe makes almost 60 oz of jelly jubilation
1 pound whole jalepeño
1 big ol’ bunch of ramps (probably about 12 oz)
1-2 dried cayenne peppers
3 cups brown sugar
1 cup cane sugar
2 cups apple cider vinegar
1 package pectin
green food coloring (optional for all you hippies)
Start heating up the canning water and sanitize the jars. Set those glassy goofballs aside but let the canning water come to a boil while you are prepping the jelly
Seed and stem jalepeño peppers
Divide in half and place one half in food processor
Dive the other half a course dice and place in bowl
Take that bunch of ramps, cut off the leaves, and put those leaves in the food processor
Give the bulbs a course dice and let ‘em join the peppers in the bowl.
Take 1 cup of apple cider vinegar and add to food processor
In a large saucepan, add the goo from processor + diced veg + remaining vinegar + the 3 cups of brown sugar and turn on the heat DO NOT RUB YOUR EYES OR YOU’LL REGRET YOU WERE EVER BORN.
While waiting for mixture to come to a boil, measure 1 cup of cane sugar and mix it with the pectin in a DRY bowl. Set this aside for later.
Also while waiting for the mixture to boil, dice up the cayenne peppers nice and fine and add to mixture.
Let the goodness boil for 10 minutes
After 10 minutes, add the sugar and pectin mixture + a few drops of the food coloring, bring to boil. ladle into jars, seal lightly, then lower into boiling water for 10 minutes.
After 10 minutes bring them out and listen to the oh so satisfying sound of the lids popping into place by that vacuum effect.
I got “tulip poplar.”
Which flowering tree are you?
I got “magnetar.”
What class of star are you?
I got “silver age.”
Which age of comics are you?
I got “extraterrestrial.”
What type of desert are you?
I got “vertical.”
What kind of window blind are you?
I got “igneous.”
What sort of rock are you?
I got “Lev Davidovich Bronshtein.”
Which famous Bolshevik are you?
I got “auguste.”
Which type of historical clown are you?
I got “4th.”
Which of the crusades are you?
I got “corporate.”
What type of lobbyist are you?
I got “Langstroth.”
What kind of bee hive are you?
I got “submarine.”
What sort of earthquake are you?
I got “out of pocket.”
What type of heathcare system are you?
I got “patellofemoral pain syndrome.”
What type of knee injury are you?
I got “Silverius.”
Which 6th-century Pope are you?
I got “double.”
What sort of negative are you?
I got “stroke.”
Which regional belt in the U.S. are you?
I got “disparate.”
What type of data are you?
I got “syphilis.”
What sexually transmitted disease are you?
I got “socioeconomic.”
What kind of drought are you?
I got “dirty bomb.”
What weapon of mass destruction are you?
I got “kakistocracy.”
What form of government are you?
I got “coal ash.”
What kind of hazardous material spill are you?
I got “institutionalized.”
What type of oppression are you?
I got “soy.”
What genetically modified organism are you?
I got “accessorial.”
What kind of complicity are you?
I got “Polyethylene Terephthalate.”
What kind of plastic resin are you?
I got “cultural.”
Which type of aggression are you?
I got “epistemological.”
What type of nihilist are you?
I got “situational.”
What kind of irony are you?
Iced Camillia on Flickr.
In memory of my mother (August 27, 1927 - January 5, 2014), pictured above, a Germantown girl with a cat on her lap.
The point the phone tree starts. When P tells me you have pneumonia. When I call K and go back to my puzzle. The point in a puzzle when it’s about choices. The point P calls to say they think you had a heart attack. When the doctors say they’ll run some tests. The point in a puzzle when it’s about color. The point MJ calls and says you asked after me. She says you asked if the door where locked. She says you asked for your keys. The point in a puzzle when it’s about shades. The point MJ calls and asks me to talk into the phone. When I say can you hear me and I hear something like breathing and I hear something like drowning. The point in the puzzle when it’s about trying the options one by one. The point MJ calls and says she wants everyone to tell you that they are ok. She wants you to know that everyone is OK. She says when everyone is ok you can shut your eyes. The point A calls and says you’re passing. When you’re passing and I’m talking into the phone and saying I’m sorry you’re sick and I love you. The point I don’t hear you. The point I don’t hear anything like breathing. The point I don’t hear anything like drowning. The point we hang up and call back or stay on the phone I can’t remember I was pacing and then sitting and then mouthing the word what and then saying the word wow. The point I walk into our bedroom and tell N you’re dead and she says oh Susie. The point I text the words night mom to myself as shorthand for the night mom died. The point I don’t want to forget. The point I text we just saw her at xmas, we just saw her wolfing down whipped cream. The point T calls and tells me we have each other. The point I want to tell everyone I know what has happened. The point I text A my mother is dead, I can’t speak. The point I lie awake until I fall asleep and then our dog wakes me up and I remember. The point I need to make phone calls. The point I can’t reach my cousins and have to send messages over Facebook and think how crass, our modern age. The point A listens to me cry. The point R does the same.
The point your children go over what happened. When the fluid built up but you seemed more verbal. When they took you upstairs to make you comfortable. When they rolled you over and you seized. When you aspirated. When you had a cardiac event. When you were in distress. When everyone kept saying you’re DNR. When the doctors said get the morphine. When the nurses said get your family. The point I want to write everything down. The point I sink into the floor and write nothing. The point my voice breaks when talking to Delta customer service. The point I’m canceling a trip I don’t want to cancel and asking about refunds. The point your children go over what’s going to happen. When we talk about underwear. When we talk about pumps. When K says they sell caskets at Costco. When A says a pine box doesn’t look as bad as you think. The point I want everyone I know to know of this grief and don’t know who to let know of this grief or how. The point when it feels like the funeral can’t come soon enough. The point MJ wants you to have a rosary made out of roses. The point your children go over what’s going to happen. The embalming the dressing the cosmetology. The opening of the grave the liner. The memorial package the obituary the spray. The prayer cards the certified copies. The cantor the what-to-do-if-it-rains. The point I start drinking. The point I post pictures on Facebook. When I want everyone on Facebook to like everything I am posting on Facebook. The point I get mad at everyone on Facebook who isn’t liking everything I am posting on Facebook.
The point I go to work and feel sick. The point I shut my office door. The point I open it. The point I shut it. The point I open it again.The point co-workers start dropping by. The point co-workers start telling me about their mothers and their uncles and their fathers. The point co-workers start looking uncomfortable so I hug them and this makes them feel better. The point I think this is a burden and a power. The point your funeral feels too soon. The point I’m standing at the back of a long line to board a train and a door opens behind me and I’m the first to board. The point I think maybe you’re watching. The point I ask others if they think you could really be watching. The point I really hope you aren’t really watching. The point I start drinking again. The point I’m gasping for air looking at pictures of you in your twenties smiling at babies. Ponytailed and crinolined and more beautiful than I have ever seen you. The point I don’t want to go to your funeral. The point MJ tells me to stand at the end of a line. The point I walk away from the line and A brings me back. When I shake hands and say thank you to the people lining up to walk down a line. The point I worry my composure may worry the people lining up to shake my hand at the end of a line. The point I see someone who is not you lying in a casket. The point I want to touch this body that is not yours but feel afraid so back away. The point I step forward again. The point my lips are shaking on your forehead. On your forehead as hard as stone and colder. The point I walk up an aisle behind your casket. The point I sit down and hear a story about blood. The point I sit down and hear a story about eating flesh. The point the story of your life gets told through the death of others. Through your husband and your mother and your god. The point I walk down an aisle and gasp. The point I smile at your grandchildren ringing church bells. The point I am handed a rose and lean into your casket and worry about falling in a grave. The point I look into the grave to see if I can see Dad. The point MJ tells me she did the same. The point everyone goes to a restaurant and the kids drink half-and-half. The point everyone says you’re with others and how comforted everyone seemed to be by this thought. The point K says you told her to make music sound easy. The point the day is finally over. The point N and I watch Seinfeld. The point I fall asleep and wake up and say there are no words. The point I fall asleep and dream about a maze. A maze where people disappear around corners. A maze where I have to retrace my steps or else get lost.
The point I am happy with N getting coffee in the market. The point N says it would have been easy for you to have been bitter. The point I decide to look at the eagle. The brass eagle with brass feathers in what used to be Wanamakers. The eagle where people meet up after going their separate ways. The point I think whatever’s good in me comes from you. The point I meet up with C and A and we talk about the others who are dead. The point A says Dad’s last words were “tell my wife.” The point we eat your favorite ice cream and take selfies. The point I stare out the window and think about The Giving Tree and how much I hate The Giving Tree. The point I get on a subway and say to myself, my mother is dead, I’m getting a seat. The point MJ tells me about the night your cat had kittens. The night you sat on the cellar steps and fed the runt milk from a spoon. The night the runt died. The point A says her daughter thinks pets can talk in heaven so when we get there we’ll get to hear what they were thinking. The point P says you managed eight children by focusing on who needed you most. The point I say your life was like triage.
The point everything feels radically simple.The point I don’t want to talk to anyone because I feel ok and think feeling ok will unnerve people so I better wait a few days to talk to people because I think feeling ok a few days from now would look better. The point time passes differently. The point I tell N that part of grieving is helping others’ respond to my grief and N says that when others lose sight of my grief all I’ll be left with is grieving. The point it’s a week later and I want to repeat the actions of that day so I start a new puzzle. The point I am sorting the pieces and looking for metaphors and my mind goes blank and I don’t finish.
Back to School on Flickr.
The Yolk on Flickr.
A poem about David. The guardian of a house with a history and a couch. David who says we can talk about the couch as an object. An object in a house battered by cannons. A couch worth a lot of money.
Or we can talk about the man who made it. A man named Affleck an objector. To approach an object by its subject the objector is interpretation. Affleck the Quaker the unrestrained maker. A man branded a traitor and sent to a Guantanamo of his time. A history that doesn’t repeat but rhymes.
To turn over in the mind. To chew. The Chew house a mansion made from slave labor. A poem about David who says people come here just to see the couch. David who says the things we can agree on are the least meaningful.